I'm Gunna Hold You Closer than Before

Uh huh...So, today is/was thanksgiving. Why is it not so special anymore? I was happy to wake up this morning and realize I was with my Daddy. I was totally thrilled to watch the parade; even woke up at like, 8 30 to see it. There was a Foster's float, so I was thrilled. Laurie Berkner sang the Bumble Bee song. Made me miss my sister bunches. "That looks like a big blue penis." "No, it's not! But his name is bloo...regard." But my family wasn't here, you know. Me, my dad, and his g/f. Not my nana, hardly my uncle, not my aunt, not my brother. And they live close, so no excuses, you know. Just...nothing. More than that though, i missed her, and my sister. More than anything i missed those two.

My brother, sister, and megan....you guiz are like my entire life's glue, you know? If you weren't there, I wouldn't get out of bed. I would be the lamest, most pathetic piece of shit that ever existed, because I would literally have next to nothing to live for. Without them I'd be like this big waste of oxygen. I remember feeling like that even when i was younger about my brother. It got stronger when my sister came along. And now, with her in my life, i've got literally everything. Dad and I were watching TV last night and there was one of those rediculous corny commercials about love and whatever. He made fun of it, you know, the whole, "We need nothing but each others love", speil, but I called him on it. I know he believes it, and you know, I do too.

I feel like total poo for not being able to do big Christmas shopping, or any at all for that matter. John got an 80$ pair of shoes that will be outgrown by before he's even out of school. My sister, well, i'll get her like, a rock or something. Lol. Okay maybe not. Actually, she really loves soccer, and I saw some really cute decorated Nike balls at the sports shop for like, 10 bucks, so I'm considering this. And that's it, though I do hope that me being there will be sufficent for everyone. I have no idea how this trip is going to work still, you know. Eh, It HAS to work out huh?

I'm so fucking stuffed. I really do weigh more like, 300 pounds now, lol, from all that fucking food I ate today, and I gaurentee I'm not done yet. Lol. I still have my uncles stuffing and turkey to attend to. Gave puppy some ham for is sreat...he loved it, of course, he is a dog.

Hey i just hurt my gah-nee.

I'm officially half way through my book, a bit more even, as in like, 10 pages more. Lol...so YAY for me. I"ll have it done before it's due. suhweet. I figure I'll have another half hr. or so before the FOSTER'S MOVIE! comes on after i'm done here, mabye, though i'm considering dling music, though i have no idea what. Maybe I'll just do a general search and get rediculous stuff. Yeah, that would be entertaining if nothing else.

Well, alright then, I'm gunna go do that then! Yoo-hoo.

*If You woke up in My bed, would you hold me?*

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